Wales centre Gavin Henson is reportedly considering his rugby future following his latest injury setback due to the ‘soul-destroying’ feeling of being sidelined.
The 27-year-old player (who wears Nike Mercurial vapor rugby boots), who suffered ankle ligament damage during the Ospreys‘ defeat to Gloucester last week, has admitted that he’s now unsure whether he will be fully fit for the British and Irish Lions tour this May before revealing doubts over what lies ahead.
“Those thoughts [retiring] run through my head,” he said, speaking to BBC Sport.
“When I get knocked out with an injury, it is soul-destroying. Is it worth it?”
The double Grand Slam winner has been absent for a large part of the season with an Achilles problem that saw him miss the start of Wales’ unsuccessful title defence.
And with touring boss Ian McGeechan poised to name his 35-man squad on April 21, Henson’s position will now come down to the Scot and not his own playing form.
“It is a complete nightmare again, I can’t believe my luck,” he admitted.
“I’m pretty down and depressed about it at the moment, maybe I’m cursed.
“The injury will probably rule me out of the Lions tour, to be honest. It’ll be a pretty brave decision to take me now as I’m probably a bit of a liability with the way I am with my injuries, this season is probably a miss now.
“It is another difficult year, I’ve had an up and down last four years with injuries and I haven’t been consistent at all – it has been tough.
“Then when I play in games the fitness isn’t there because I haven’t had a good run of games. There is more tough times ahead again.”
The Ospreys are currently preparing for a testing away clash with Munster for a spot in the Heineken Cup semi-final. But with a dejected Henson now joining flank Jonathan Thomas, lock Ian Evans, prop Duncan Jones and winger Nikki Walker on the treatment table, morale is not at its highest.
“If all I am enjoying is playing then there is not much enjoyment then is it?” Henson continued.
“It is pretty tough off the field, rugby has gone so professional you start to lose enjoyment side of it.”